"my estranged is still very stressed and let's out little burps of anger. You have working car...you have free accommodation you have your gsf.. I want to yell back and you could have it too. But I know that until her mind settles and she calms that small wins are all I can have."
I know of which you speak. I am trying to help a female now who is also bipolar, as your ex-girlfriend is, and as I am.
Except, I am a bipolar on medicine--Lithium to calm down the mania and Mirtazapine anti-depressant--to lift the depression.
She is a bipolar who is not on medicine, and like your ex-girlfriend, she is all over the place. Sometimes she is talking like at about 100 miles an hour. That's when she's out cigarettes, not having any or taking any medicine for bipolar, and probably out of street drugs.
Her next, first, appointment at a medical clinic, is Nov. 15. We are trying to get her on some kind of bipolar medicine, and off any street drugs she may be taking.
She has been saying for 6 months she's going to get her driver's license, but it's just dawned on me that she might have criminal record of some sort which will show up if she tries to get a driver's license, and she knows she won't get it.
Because someone told me her boyfriend had a felony and that's why they didn't apply for govt. housing.
But he got a job two weeks ago, I think he said it paid $1,500 a month. So that is very good.
But I know what you're going through trying to work with a bipolar. From being one, and from trying to help one, tough. Rewarding at times, but tough.
But what else are you going to do. Leave them stranded like plenty of people have left us? No way.
You said, "Been alone and in the country is hard. I see people once or twice a week."
As someone who cannot drive, I often go for long spells without seeing any body. So, I know what that's about, also.
You say, "But I have my faith and the house to finish."
As poet Robert Frost put it,
On Stopping in the Woods on a Snowy Evening
"My horse must find it ****,
to stop without a farmhouse near.
"The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
"but I have promises to keep,
"And miles to go before I sleep.
"And miles to go before I sleep."
"Two paths diverged in a yellow wood.
"And I, I took the one less traveled by.
"And that has made all the difference."