Welcome to the forum
I am glad you joined us.
I am sorry for how you are currently feeling. All meds do have side effects and we react to them differently.
Sometimes it takes a while for us to find the right medication and right dosage before they work for us. I am glad that you are not giving up. Are you attending therapy as well? Both meds and therapy work together to cope with Bipolar.
Be sure to let your doc know how you are feeling on the meds. They would be the best person to advise you.
Journaling helps me cope with things. Writing your feelings and help you feel better. Sometime I write more than I thought could. Lol. I sometimes practice mindfulness. Distraction techniques such as reading a nice book, listening to music and watching some nice movies help me as well.
Hope the meds start working for you, ad you feel better.
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