Well, it sounds like you hit upon it.
You said, "Hmm...now that you put it this way, I do suspect that maybe she's schizo-affective...? Like maybe Bipolar + Schizophrenic...? Sigh...this doesn't make me feel better too..."
Well, it might not make you feel better but it does sound like you may have remembered what her condition has been called.
Typing "schizoaffective disorder" into the search engine, it says in the nami.org website:
"Schizoaffective disorder is a chronic mental health condition characterized primarily by symptoms of schizophrenia, such as hallucinations or delusions, and symptoms of a mood disorder, such as mania and depression.
"The symptoms of schizoaffective disorder can be severe and need to be monitored closely. Depending on the type of mood disorder diagnosed, depression or bipolar disorder, people will experience different symptoms:
• Hallucinations, which are seeing or hearing things that aren’t there.
• Delusions, which are false, fixed beliefs that are held regardless of contradictory evidence.
• Disorganized thinking. A person may switch very quickly from one topic to another or provide answers that are completely unrelated.
• Depressed mood. If a person has been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder depressive type they will experience feelings of sadness, emptiness, feelings of worthlessness or other symptoms of depression.
• Manic behavior. If a person has been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder: bipolar type they will experience feelings of euphoria, racing thoughts, increased risky behavior and other symptoms of mania.
• A period during which there is a major mood disorder, either depression or mania, that occurs at the same time that symptoms of schizophrenia are present.
• Delusions or hallucinations for two or more weeks in the absence of a major mood episode.
• Symptoms that meet criteria for a major mood episode are present for the majority of the total duration of the illness.
• The abuse of drugs or a medication are not responsible for the symptoms.
"Schizoaffective disorder is treated and managed in several ways:
• Medications, including mood stabilizers, antipsychotic medications and antidepressants"
So she may have had the right medicine, an antipsychotic, but she was also not given a mood stabilizer such as Lithium, which I'm on, or an antidepressant, which I'm on also (Mirtazapine). So maybe right diagnosis, wrong medicine.
I don't know, but with her condition and mental state, and then her missing, something about
that diagnosis/medication was way off, in my view.
You said her condition was: "mood changes, being suddenly energetic, suddenly lethargic, having impaired judgment, hearing voices, not sleeping at all for a few days, grand ideas about
getting a new place and applying for new jobs, not being able to focus (blank stare), withdrawing from me and our activities totally, fingers twitching every few seconds, suddenly bursting into tears, irrational fear of dust mites and seeing black shadows in the room."
That seems to match schizoaffective disorder.
You're wondering, "Could it still be Bipolar...? Hm..." I don't think it's bipolar.
You asked, "Tim Tam and HTreturns, have you ever abandoned/left your spouses for days/weeks out of the blue...? And did you all ever return...? Thanks for the input ya."
I never did that, but that is a good question. I know you're pretty worried. Are you able to get some sleep? Are you getting any help yourself, or know where you can go to get help if you need it?
Yes, I think you're right to message her from time to time. I wouldn't blame myself for feeling less stress that's she's away from the house. Are you able to stay busy?
As for taking care of yourself, I would try to eat good meals, get enough sleep, work on other things. After all, it's her not you who is having the problems.
I would also try to stay positive that you can get through this. If you stay positive, you're going to come up with more good ideas, for you are telling your mind, we can get through this.
Post Edited (Tim Tam) : 5/22/2019 3:06:33 PM (GMT-6)