Thank you all for your time and support. So good news - Mom's cancer has not spread to her throat and My step Dad's colon is cancer free as well!
Yes I was a regular when I started in 2007 for a couple years. Was on depression and anxiety board but mostly on herel Just got super busy with my career and so I kinda disappeared. Thanks for your suggestion about
meditation. I tried if for a year with the aid of a very skilled psychotherapist and he decided due to my severe form of BP and racing brain I just was able to get there and it was doing more harm than good. I was in DBT at that time and the golden rule of DBT is "don't do anything to make it worse". But it is a good suggestion I just need tangible things to slow my brain down - like colouring or tv. As for the boyfriend it's coming to an end. He got upset with me yesterday so it's a matter of time and you are right. Work will be tough but you are correct in that too. I need to not care what others think.
HT - thank you for your healing hugs and thoughts. How are you feeling today?
Tim Tam - I should clarify - it was the lithium that I couldn't stay on due to side effects but I didn't experience them at 600 mg, my psychiatrist just thought that wouldn't be a therapeutic dose - wanted me at 900 or 1200.
And yes, I'm ultradian. So my mood changes all the time. Depressive episodes are the only states I can stay in for days at a time otherwise I am all over in a day or less.I am on Seroquel for stabliziation and mainly sleep and I will never go off that.
I am not allowed to be on antidepressants as they cause hypomania/mania.
I need to get back to exercise but obviously this depressive episode has me stuck. I will try to get to the gym tomorrow. I volunteer as a peer supporter for people with mental health issues and I have my suicide prevention certification today so that will get me out of the house! Thank you for sharing about
your grandmother as you are so right in pointing that out. We have come a long way and it's wonderful we can all support each other like this. And I will try to remain positive as it's so important
Hugs to you all,