I really doubt that I have ADD/ADHD. Up until now I have been doing fine in school. I was admitted to this program with a 3.5 GPA on the prerequisites. Some days I am able to put in about
8 hours of studying, so I know I can concentrate when I really focus. It is just that some days I find myself wasting too much time, and not doing the studying that I should.
I just feel so discouraged. I am suppose to graduate next year, and then I will have a career. I am begining to wonder if I actually will graduate next year or not. I start to imagine myself not ever having a career and just working marginal jobs the rest of my life. I know I should have more positive thinking, but I seem to shift towards negative thoughts.
I did have really bad depression years ago. I am amazed at how easily those depressive thoughts slip into my head. It is like I go into this mode where everything is negative. Even if some of those thoughts are not even logical, I can't really stop myself from thinking that way.