I dunno whats happening. I had been two years without any major bp symptoms. I haven't been medicated for that long, either, but the last two days I can definitely feel myself going up. I wouldn't say I'm even hypomanic yet, but I'm definitely heading in that direction. Usually I do my best to not get help when I start going up, but the last time I did that- as good as it felt- I got kicked out of school :(
I also have some drug abuse issues that I feel are behind me, but realize could come back at any time. I'm medicated with narcotics for a peripheral neuropathy and Thoracic Outlet Syndrome and in the last 5 months I haven't once over-used or otherwise misused my medications (before I went to rehab, however short of a time I was there, opiates were my DOC). This last week I've been on a dose much lower than usual (reg. doc on vacation, just after he switched me to a new med).
I don't know what I'm gonna do. I haven't seen a psychiatrist in two years and the only doctor close to me is on vacation. I should have seen it coming, I guess, though. about two weeks ago I was way deep in a depression. Of course a mania is gonna follow a depression!! And on top of that, I decided to take an ephedrine/guafenesin tablet because I was coughing a lot last night, and wanted to stop for class. I forgot that ephedrine was a stimulant! I feel like I'm running triple time right now, mentally. But then again I also feel like my comprehension of school subjects is double what it usually is. But I also can't concentrate. Its sort of a trade off, there I guess. I just don't know where my behaviour is gonna go. My concentration always sucks, this is only aggravating it.
Hope you're all having a good day, sorry if this is a little rambly :(