THANK YOU so much for your help. Honestly. Needless to say I am at my wits end right now, and you completely understand and that is a comfort that I cannot even begin to express.
You are right, my dx was very recent. I do feel extremely overwhelmed (and discouraged) b/c although I am somewhat new to bp I know the battle derpession and anxiety brings. I know what I am facing. I am now more terrified than ever, b/c even though I am trying to research this illness, I am constantly confronted with the hurdles I am up against. For example, the meds. I know for a FACT that this is going to be something very difficult to get straight. The combination I am right now is NOT good, and I have an appt with the doc in 2 days.
The best advice I ever got from the pro-help was that in this illness, REST is THE most important thing. No HEALTHY person feels good when they don't get enough rest, and for us, it's even worse. That is something that I realize for sure. about 4 months ago I weened off of Trazodone which I was on for 2 years for sleeping and I am telling you Trazodone was the BEST thing that ever happened to me b/c it did help me get the rest that I needed. With rest, I was feeling well physically and mentally. So that is something that I am definitely going to mention to the doc on Friday.
I also strangely did not feel the addiction to this sleeping aid and weened off of them successfully more than once.
Anyway, where I work is BUSY and lots of pressure and of course I can't even mention my illness for accomodation b/c of the stigma, so that just adds to everything. Anyway, I will try to stay hopeful. On the plus side, I think I have met the love of my life and we are moving in together soon, and he has been wonderful.
And thank you for your prayers, you will be in mine as well. I cannot tell you how much your words of support have helped me cope. I am definitely calling the crisis/help line tonite just for some more support. Sometimes a conv w/ppl who know what we're dealing with is more helpful than anything.
Thanks again, take care and if you ever need anything, don't hesitate