My name is adj and I am a new member. I am 36 years old and have been suffering with really bad mood swings since I have been 6. I have had severel suicide attempts, the last which I tried walking in front of a bus and I ended up in the psych unit for a week. It has taken me 30 years to be somewhat looked at seriously by the medical profession, but the confusion is that I am being diagnosed between BP and BPD. I was diagonsed with post-partum depression after my second child in 1996 and was prescribed Prozac which helped me tremendously. I should of stayed on that, but I self-medicated myself and when I felt better I stopped. Then in college, in 1999, I began to have very high peaks with major mood swings and was seeing a campus counsellor and he prescribed Effexor 150XR which I did not like, so I stop that, my mood swings got worse, then like then sun coming out the clouds I was okay for the next few years.
Fast forward to about 2003. Mood swings, excessive highs and lows, major bouts of depression, sought out help, the doc (my family doctor) first prescribed Celexa 10mg, then 20mg, Then Elavil, then Lithium, Trazadone, then Clonazepam, then Seraquel, then it all came crashing down..... and now I am taking 200mg Topamax and 25mg Seroquel at night. I still get the extreme highs but just not for days, and if I miss a dose of Seroquel I am up for at least two days straight. I still get suicide thoughts. I still have bouts of anger, and I get strong urgest to stop taking my meds when I get my feelings of "highs". It is like I feel dizzy all the time.
Oh I could go on sorry.
Just need a little advice for starters