My name is Elisabeth and I was recently diagnosed with Bi-polar disorder. My symptoms don't seem to match any one diagnosis guide I've found online, and I have a lot of questions.
Before I start, does any one else have a problem with family and friends, the minute you become anything other than a softly smiling zombie, ask you "Are you taking your meds?". This drives me crazy. Yes, I have a tendancy to be over dramatic and over emotional, but does that mean I can never express anger, or dissapointment, or unhappiness again? I just feel like no one is taking me seriously any more. "Oh, she's just bipolar. Ignore her." Is what they're thinking. Anyway.....
I am severly depressed most of the time, but there can be periods during the day lasting anywhere from five minutes to a few hours when I'm manic. Sometimes I'll go weeks without a manic episode. But they never last very long. When my docs thought I was just depressed, they put me on prozac, and I was suddenly manic for about 6 months straight. Of course, I just thought I wasn't depressed any more, but looking back, binge drinking, not sleeping, and promiscuous sex is not my style at all. Is this normal? Does anyone else often look back at behavior from months, days, or hours ago and wonder what they were doing?
I've been on about 10 different drugs so far, and none have seemed to help much. Right now I'm on Prozac, Zoloft, and my 2nd day of lamictal. (of course I'm about going insane, thinking every freckle and itch is THE DEADLY RASH!)
I'm still confused as to which bipolar category I fall into. I show signs of BPI and BPII, can you be both? And what is rapid cycling? There should be a manual. With instructions. And colorfull illustrations.
Basically I have no idea what is going on, and that is very frightening. Can anyone reccommend some good websites or helpful books? Thank you for your time, Elisabeth