I am a new here, have bi-polar 2 with rapid cycling and mood swings. I have a friend that has bp1. She has done well on the med. you mentioned being hesitant to go on. I cannot remember if you said abilify or another that starts with an a. Sorry, my brain sometimes is foggy.
I take a combo of medication and seem to be doing ok. It's an ongoing thing for me, monitering my meds. doing research on new ones. Lamictal has been a Godsend to me. I cannot take some of the other meds because I a problem with my liver, . But we're hoping to get the autoimmune disease under control and stop the attack on my liver. I was treated for depression for many years until being dx with bp. I have more depression than anthing else, but have mixed moods with loss of concentration, anxiety, which I take an anti-anxiety med for. I also take a low dose of an anti-depressant, but if I start to get hypomanic I stop it. BUt it sees that I need the boost of the added antidepressant. Who knows? It's such a complicated disease.
INHO.. I/we worry much too much about our condtion and focus much too much on it.
Fear gets a hold of me when I am having a lot of symptoms and I let my imagination run away.
I was in a great support group for years. One of the things that stuck with me is this.
Thoughts lead to feelings, feelings lead to actions, and on and on. If I can get support at the thought stage with a buddy or sponsor it helps me. I also think that bp 2 is harder to manage, or at least from what I know about it and I have several friends with it.
Another cliche I kept with me was this.. move your muscles, it will teach your brain.
It does not help me on some days when I refuse to get out of the bed except to eat and potty, but other days when I can forget about my symptoms long enough to get a shower, dressed, and call someone or take a walk or just do something objective, it helps.
Oh.. a great link for all medical issues and a very good one for BP.. is remedyfind.com