you and i haven't shared much on this site, but i have admired your coolness and spot-on responces. you like hugs? have a dozen (((((((((((())))))))))). you have earned every one.
i am dealing with multiple medical problems, from bp to chronic pain to copd (i've been smoking for more years than many of you are years old
. we all occationally hate our lives and curse the gods that put us here. this is called being NORMAL. boring, being normal, isn't it? look at the bright side: at least you CAN work. i haven't been able to work for over 16 years! and, with a male ego and overachiever, my work was my life and my life was my work. when suddenly, painfully, i was no longer able to work, i really had a hard time. what i'm trying to say is that freedom is the ability to exercise options. lazy, you are very free. you have a caring husband and a very marketable skill. you are truely blessed.
the depression isn't personal, you know that. it's a symptom of the disease. medication and determination will handle the symptoms. i believe in you, lazy. you are a truely remarkable woman.