what a blessing this forum is! i am unbelieveably fortunate to have you. may god smile on you for helping me.
rosie, i do an ongoing analysis of everything. i consider our cars, where we live, the state of our house, our flatware, our cat, -- you get the picture. when i was able to work, this constant evaluation helped lead to some of the most awesome (with every meaning of that word) you could imagine (in some of your worst nightmares). now, this constant evaluation just drives me to distraction.
nothing happened. i was just reevaluating the criteria for bp and found that i don't have manic periods or periods of heightened energy. as a matter of fact, my get up and go got up and went a long time ago. so no mania (although, as i said, i am obcessive). there have two manic periods in my life, one in 1970 and one in 1984. i did a lot of crazy things, spent $ i didn't have and hurt a lot of people, including myself. but do 2 manic periods in 60 years count as manic for a bp diagnisis?
i have chronic debilitating back pain and take darvocet and lortab to control the pain. over the last several months, the pain meds have pooped out. for bp i only take lithium carbonate, but this, too, is pooping out. because of the lithium, i also take a thyroid supplement.
i will check out dissociative disorder as soon as i get through here and with my e-mail. thanks for the input.
thank all of you. i am still stuck. does any of this make any sence. rosie, i feel like i am truely certifiable!