I have found when chosing a Pdoc or a therapist that I have the right to interview them while they are getting their evaulation of me. My brother, a therapist in CO. says that we should be very choosy and shop for a doctor and therapist. I was with a wonderful doctor for many years that I trusted completly, but finances changed all that a few years back. Now I am on disability, at a mental health clinic, and do not have as much choice.
But, I did ask my therapist what her experience was, how she was equipped to help me, and what kind of therapy she/he is intending to use. I tell them what I want out of the therapy and ask them if they are going to be intimidated by someone that is very outspoken and an advocate for herself. I want to know everything that is going on with every aspect of my health, not only physically, but mentally. I also make sure that my doctor really HEARS me and appreciates my insight into my illness and does not treat me like a number.
I would not stay with a doctor or therapist that I feel did not have my best interest in mind, and that I could not sit down and talk with and ask them questions about themselves and their training. I guess I'm just picky about who I want poking around in my mind or prescribing meds to me.
I have been keeping up with your posts. It would be good if you could get in to see someone soon. I missed an appointment with my therapist last week. I also have to keep up those to stay in this assistance program. But I was too sick to go. I have some medical problems that he is aware of (the therapist). I've just been really honest about that with him, and my doc knows so they may give me a break because of it.
I have to go for a lithium level on Monday. I will have to do it, but not alone. A good friend and I are going together. I find it is good to have someone that understands us to be with us at times when we are going through relapses, illnesses, confusing times,ect. which I have gone through all withiin the lasat year.
I have to be honest. I would be scared to be off my medicine right now. It does keep me from having the mood swings and rapid cycling I have with bp2. and the dreaded depression. At least it keeps it at bay. I talke lamictal, lexapro, lithium and klonopin.
I didn't mean to write so much, but have been reading and was a bit concerned about the hypomaniic state you are in, but you seem like you have a good head on your shoulders and know what to do. Following through is sometimes hard though. At least for me.
"Hope is seldom found in the things we can see;
it is the sweet fragrance of grace."