Hi Lost Mom,
So sorry to hear about your daughter--but glad she is being diagnosed at a young age. The earlier the symptoms are treated in life, the less severe the course of the disease, is what I was told. Untreated episodes cause a "kindling" effect--they escalate each time. I was diagnosed at around 35 but know I have had the disease since I was in my teens. I medicated for years (till 30) with drugs and alcohol. Not a good mix with bp! but...everything for a reason I guess.
Remember she is still the child you gave birth to--this is all just part of her individual journey. Don't look into the future and try not to have your pain in advance. Today will put enough for you to concern yourself with. It really does help to do the day at a time thing with this illness. Sometimes that is the hardest thing for me to remember and I get caught up in what-ifs and scary scenes of the future. It isn't here yet and I can't go there in my head because I always come up with worst case scenarios.
Two months ago I could barely walk or leave the sofa. Today I feel so good--change in meds, change in outlook, some gratitude. BP is a disease of change, just like life.
She is lucky to have such a loving Mom. And you don't sound so lost--you sound like you are grieving the diagnosis of your beloved daughter. Thank God for your humanity.
"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us."--Helen Keller