Hi Nicola hun.
Oh yes I have done this!!! When I was doing postgrad stuff and then working temporary lecturing jobs, I was forever in financial schtuck, and forever showing my ostrich roots by leaving bills till the final reminder (which typically always seemed to come at a worse time financially than the initial bill!), and I almost got a massive council tax fine because I just didn't sort myself out and kept missing payments. I've trained myself to be much better about this now (mainly with the aid of direct debits!). I even made myself work out a flippin' financial plan -- and stuck to it! -- and now no longer fall into the red at the end of ever month (a slightly healthier paycheque has helped though!).
On the work front, I still have a habit of putting things off till the last minute because the thought of some things sends me into denial, but, again, I've been trying to train myself.
What bugs me is that once upon a time I had no problem with any of this: I was the most organised person I know, but I slipped a lot during one really bad bout of depression. And the old depression-concentration thing doesn't help. I know that my current meds really help with that and I can feel myself getting back to better concentration and less denial. But I've long since stopped hoping that one day it will all just click again: I know I picked up some bad habits and practised them for a long time, and all bad habits take a lot of effort to break.
It will take time for you too, hun: you have to feel like the meds are helping you with the cause, and then you can start to really work on some of the behavioural patterns that you have got into (CBT can really help with this).
In the meantime, you know that there are steps you can take, and having a list to work through in kind of baby-steps is a good idea. For example, you could do all the writing up of the report today, and then come back to it tomorrow and format it. And if you can't work out how to do the formatting, you can always email me with what you've got and explain where the formatting is wrong and what's needed. I've done *a lot* of formatting in my time and this may possibly be something that I can help you figure out.
In terms of talking to someone about the provisions being made for you in this class, you know that this is something you need to do: these problems are always worth catching early, and they will be easily fixed. So, whether or not you manage to finish working through this stuff for Monday, make that your day when you prioritise emailing the relevant lines of support, or going to see them. Your uni's disabilities unit could probably intervene for you on this and save you lots of trouble.
Above all, know that you *can* make this work for you. It may take a little persistence, but you *can* do it: you are bright and strong, and you have had to deal with much bigger things than this in your life. -- And we'll help/support you in any ways we can too. :)
How are the meds and things going? Still making things a bit easier, I hope!! :)
Love to you hun,
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