Hi! I am recently diagnosed as Bipolar NOS with rapid cycles. ( on top of social anxiety disorder, general anxiety disorder, and blah blah blah, I'm tired of it all...) What that means, I guess I understand, I am still trying to digest all this. My bipolarness is more like Crissi's response. Esp. the dysphoric hypomanic states, and really it is a scarey state for me and my loved ones. I am violent, angry, argumentitive and vicious. As well as hysterical and most times I truely belive I am right to be so enraged. My thoughts are racing so fast, they make sense until I try to say them, then it's chaos that comes out. This can last for hours or maybe up to 2 weeks. The episodes are what can get me in alot of trouble. Yesterday, was my 3rd wedding anniversary, and my 3 and 2 yr old sons were home as well as my husband. Long story short, during an argument, I flipped the solid oak table over twice, knoked off all the stuff on it, pushed, pulled, and threatened to hit my husband several times even after he choked me, and severely bruised my arm, saying if I hit hit he'd break it. I still would not let him leave...ahhhhh! Needless to say we are both out of control. I am horrified by what I have allowed my sons to see, and live through in such a short time. I am now trying to get the help I need to be able to raise my sons in a healthy and nurturing home, which is what I am like when I am normal...whatever that is. I am in cognitive behavioural therapy, and on meds. And really reaching out to anyone I can, who will listen and not judge me. So far that is not very many people, they dont get it, that is where this forum comes in. I dont have much time, and I only have dial up so mostly I just read the threads, and fell connected to other people. Safely!
DX:BP NOS, SAD, GAD, PTSD,PD,AGORAPHOBIA, recovering heroin addict (7yrs.),recovering methadone addict (4yrs),hypertension
RX:DEPAKOTE, Kolonopin,Toporol xl
Surgeries:Reconstructive shoulder surgery, breast reduction, tonsilectomy, and spinal meningitis all in the same 2 yrs. 1993/94
Twin pregnancy in 2002, gave birth 5 wks early, got pregnant 2 months later and gave birth exactly 12 months after having my twins.