Hi there Chelle ,
How did you sleep hun?
I actually slept all through the night! I didn't wake up once, which is really odd for me. I'm usually up at least once. I guess my relaxing and doing nothing paid off for once! Yeah!
BTW, thanks for asking about me.
if i understand your title, you were invited to go to temple square in salt lake city. if anyone even has half of an opportunity, GO. i was there in the late 80s and was allowed to walk through the temple. they only had a few rooms off-limits. what a beautiful piece of architecture! and the statue of jesus in the foyer - unbelieveable.
i don't care what one's religion, being there alone was healing. this is truely a holy place.
Post Edited (wmnak) : 12/16/2006 5:20:50 PM (GMT-7)
Ya, it's temple square in Salt Lake. It is a beautiful place. There is a spirit there that I can't explain. They have the entire square lit up for Christmas and it's magical. I haven't been to see them in quite a while for many reasons, long, long story. I really had every intension of going, but as the time to leave approached, I was having anxiety about leaving the house and getting out of what has become my routine. I wanted to just stay at home and hole up, in my pajamas and watch TV. I know my friends were disappointed but something was hanging on to me and I was frightened to leave the house. This is becoming more and more of a habit, my not wanting to get out of my jammies and go anywhere. I just want to sit in my chair and vegitate. I know it's wrong, I know it's not helping me. But I can't seem to get up enough energy. I feel like it takes all of my energy lately to get out of bed and do nothing. I did that today, been in my jammies all day. Took a shower and on went some clean ones. I'm too comfortable in my comfort zone. I don't know how to fix it, I don't know how to talk myself into outside activity. And as I sit here, the depression gets worse. It's a continuing cycle, round and round and round.
The sad thing is that I've been on so many antidepressants that I can't name them. I was on Cymbalta for a couple of months but found it did nothing. Now I'm on Prozac, along with a smaller dose of Cymbalta and I'm on Imiprimine at night. I've been in and out of psych units the pat 6-7 weeks and so the answer to your talking to doctors is yes. I'm starting to feel like a lab rat. Yes, I had major depression after my hyster and this season stresses me out, money and all the other stuff that comes with it. I'm keeping track of my moods on a chart to see what my pattern is. How much depression I have and how long it lasts and the same with my manic phases. Seeing if there is a trigger for the moods also. I pray it works.
you are having a metaphysical experience. you are doing everything right and it still isn't working. there was an episode of star treck in which mr spok had the same experience. at least you're in good company.
if you find a pattern, let me know. i spent over 30 yrs of my life at work looking for patterns. they fasenate me.i've been around longer, so i'd bet that i have taken more antidepressens than you. noone of them really worked until my pdoc put me on welbutrin. of course what wroks well for me may well kill you. first lesson i tried to teach my grandaughters is that life isn't fair. hard lesson for all of us.
i'm not trying to second guerss your pdoc, but there have been reports of prozac actually making depression worse, and possibly encouraging suicide. i didn't have these problems when i was on it, but it also simply didn't work for me. it's not fair. lol
you said that you told your drs about the depression and your situation. buit did they HEAR you? drs can siometimes be asses when it comes to listening.
hon, i hope that some of this helps. you can get through ths christmas season and enjoy it the way it was meant to be. and never loose your faith.
Warren - I was given prozac at one time and it made me want to hurt other ppl , right out of the blue , no provocation at all , ppl I didn't even know. It was really hard to control myself (I didn't hurt anyone thankfully) it was also scary to watch myself being like that - I went back to the docs and stopped them.