I know its long.I'm sorry but really need advice
I have gotten so much help on here already,but I thought if I told my story,everyone could perhaps give some advice on different questions.My husband and I have been together 15 years,married 13.His first nmarriage,my second.First husband alchohlic.Anyways.We have always been very close.Over the past couple of years,lots of stressful situations.Seeing my mom pass away with alzheimers.Youngest son developed anxiety attacks.Gets bullied at school.Now we take him to therapy.
In hindsight.My husband has always had highs and lows.But over the years they have gotten worse.Well when we talked on Christmas he told me to leave it,it would pass.Finally,he said he did'nt feel the same anymore and he just could not understand.He needed to leave us,but does'nt want to leave us without.We have struggled financialy this year also.Everytime he would fix one thing something else would happen.Anyways it broke my heart and hurt my gut worse than any pain ever.But I have to be here for my son.Went to doc,who put me on anti-dpressant.When I went to my therapist she asked all questions that were'nt me.but everything matched my hubby.
SSo she said he most likely has bipolar.If I throw this at him,he'll say your crazy,cause its coming from his wife.So we decided once I've been in therapy a few times,she says she or the other male therapist says they would want him to come in anyway to help with closure///
He really is a good man.If he was'nt it would'nt hurt so bad.He has not left yet as he wants to get me something to drive at tax time.Now we share a vehicle.He has'nt told our son.I don't want to destroy him.We have always been my sons strength.But its getting worse,hubby gets spells where he says he just can't sit here.And he'll go to his moms or sis for a few hours.They will call to see if I'm okay.They don't even see it.Now I'm getting scared he is going to start with things I read since my research.Cause of course I immediately started reading about
bipolar.Since this low has been so long,so many triggers this year.What if on his high he starts sleeping around like I read some do.I don't know if Me or his son could handle that.One would be hard enough...I just don't know how to cope
I use to have a handle on life ,But it broke!!!!