Meds can help you as long as you use them in conjunction with therapy. What meds have you tried/are you on? Meds are supposed to help you to feel better , so that you can get better......see what I mean? If they are not doing their job there are many others out there - don't give up just because one doesn't work. Same goes with doctors - if they don't do the job , find a different one.
I'm so glad you are going for counselling - I've been waiting for counselling since October , I still have another month/month and a half to wait.....it will be hard going for you but you WILL get there.
As for your husband not understanding , unless he has experienced it himself he will have no idea what you are going through , what you are feeling. He will be bewildered about what he can do for you but if you can suggest ways for him to help you that would be good , he might feel more in control. My partner buried his head in the sand when I was diagnosed , I was annoyed at first , but I understand now that he just didn't know what to say and he didn't understand what it all meant.
Do you have anyone who could look after your son while you get some "me" time? Have a bath , read a book.....
DX : Bipolar , Panic Disorder , GAD , OCD , IBS.
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