let me second our Fearless Leader's welcome to hw and to our bp family. some posts generate an amazing number of posts - seemingly unrelated to the original post. other posts, that i would have thought would have generated a multitude of posts end up generating only a few. you never know.
short answer to your question, no, shine, in the end there is nobody out there. your ultimately your fate is in your hands. you may have friends and advisors; but ultimately it is you who takes action or not.
i can appreciate your reluctance to taking medication. but if you had diabetis would you take metformin or inject yourself with insulin to save your life? you're only 19 and may simply be too young to understand the gravity of certain situations. please, don't take this remark wrong. the human brain grows at a certain rate and at different ages our brains are physically capable of understanding or dealing with certain concepts and events. this has nothing to do with you as a person or as a beautiful spirit. it's like gravity - it's a law of nature.
as far as i have been able to ascertain, if left untreated bp escalates and hospitalizations become more frequent and more prolonged. one person on this forum likened bp to diabetis: both car caused by chemical imbalances and both have dire consequences if left untreated.
sorry to be so blunt and honest with you, shine. when i ws 19 (over 40 yrs ago) i thought i could conquer the world. maybe you can. i wish you well on this journey.
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