Maybe I've already lost it - I am cylcothymic as most of you know - that is almost BPI anyway, in a nutshell, my moods swing VERY fast, usually like BP manic, and depressed, but here lately, they are different, i know that I need to see a doc going Friday, but thought I'd post now, to get it off my chest.. I am not going to say I have different personalities in my head, I don't hear voices, only my own, I guess, but my moods have names - does that make sense? over the weekend, I was sooo very angry, nobody could do anything right, they just kept pushing my buttons (although not intenionaly) they could have given me the world, and I'd have been mad it wasn't gift wrapped you know, anyway, while I was thinking and trying to figure out this mood - a name came to me - Stephanie - that was it - no other explaination...
then like my moods always do - I was solice - not really feeling nothing - and yes another name came - Connie -
started taking my Lamictal on Monday night not too sure about that one - make me sleepy, but unable to go to sleep -
Anyway, yesterday was BAD me and partner arguing about my 16 yr old son, and I was crying most of the day - again trying to think of how things are going so wrong for me - Stacie -
The thing about these names, I'm not thinkg of them, they're just popping into my head, and I don't know anyone by these names, I don't do things and then not remember them - I don't think they are multiple personalities, just multiple moods ?? I don't know, maybe I subconsiously named my moods, to help myself deal?
the only difference I notice, is that this weekend when I was so angry, I would say things and didn't care about how they sounded - when usually I'm very careful not to hurt anyone's feelings -
well, if anyone has any advice, I appreciate it - like I said, going to doc on Friday, maybe she can suggest something...
thanks for listening
Dawn - feel like me today