First of all, thanks for the replies to my initial post. It's nice to have found a place where others understand.
I'm curious to know what others experience with bipolar. Are the things I deal with part of the disease, or just how I am?
I have a terrible memory. I forget things almost immediately - example - I'll be on the phone with my husband and he'll ask me to pull something down for dinner. We hang up the phone and POOF!...I forget to pull dinner out of the freezer.
This happens constantly, to the point where it's become a joke at times, a real pain in the #*% other times. I've forgotten appointments, when bills are due, to pick up toilet paper at the store...I even forgot a scheduled dinner with my father and step-mother. Some forgetfulness is common, I know...but what I experience is way over the top.
I am easily irritated. And once irritated, I stay that way for hours. Both my husband and son suffer my wrath when they've done something to set me off, and usually whatever it is they've done doesn't warrant such crankiness.
I have no motivation. It takes me an hour to clean the kitchen properly, but it takes my husband 25 minutes to complete the same exact tasks. I take frequent breaks and then take forever to get back to it.
I'm also easily distracted. When picking up around the house, I'll take something upstairs to my bedroom, fully intending to go back downstairs and finish off whatever it was I was doing.
But in the bedroom I'll notice something that belongs in the bathroom, so I'll return that item to the bathroom and notice the sink needs a wipedown, so I'll run downstairs to grab a cloth and notice a pile of dirty clothes that need to be taken down to the laundry room...etc etc etc
As you can probably tell, I'm a stay at home mom...at least mostly. I work 2 days a week in a low stress office job. Most of my problems are here at home - so far, I've managed to control things while at work...except for the memory thing. Luckily my job isn't that difficult, so it really hasn't been a problem.
Of course...when I'm in a manic state, I clean the house like the President is coming to dinner, rearrange furniture, organize closets, and wash every piece of laundry we own...all before noon.
Are these problems in any way related to bipolar, or do I just need to learn better time management/retention skills?