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Date Joined Mar 2007
Total Posts : 2
   Posted 3/20/2007 3:50 PM (GMT -7)   
Hello All
I have so enjoyed reading the "You know you're Bipolar if..." posts!  I needed a laugh today.
I was diagnosed with BiPolar about four months ago following a psychotic episode (precipitated by 2.5 years of anti-depressants which held me in a constant state of mania - - which, for me, is anxiety, irritability and nervousness).  So while living my life being a homeschool mom and wife and was I struggling so hard and one eve, ran out the front door leaving my then 15 year old with my five year old.  It was not unusual for my daughter to babysit.  It's just that I neglected to mention I was leaving.  I really felt the completely irrational fear that my children might be chasing me.  Spent the eve hiding from my poor husband as he drove around our town looking for me.  I mean hiding, literally, behind bushes, parked cars, etc.  Strange, the whole time I kept telling myself I was acting ridiculous and really needed to go home and stop this silliness.  I just couldn't though.  My husband (who, by the way, is the most supportive loving person on the face of the earth) asked the Sherrif to look for me and they eventually found me and followed me till I got to my husband. Sheesh.  My husband took me to a therapist then, when the cutting started, to a psychiatrist.  I took meds (some very heavy seroquel, topamax - then lamictal and abilify) until I couldn't anymore.  They made me sick, too sick to get out of bed.  Hey, I have a life here.  A family.  So now I'm researching alternative forms of coping; cognative behavioral therapy, nutrition, exercise, light therapy, etc.  Thing is, I'm really struggling.  Leaning too heavily on the Ativan I have left over for the constant irritability.  I am eating well and exercising though.  I went back to the psych to discuss options but she was awful.  I'm not sure she could have cared less about me and my boring little problem.  I really need a doctor I can talk with - who will actually listen, with whom I can discuss treatment options that don't include massive doses of heavy drugs.  Okay, I've just realized I am really rambling and spilled much more than I meant to bore everyone with on the first message.  Sorry guys.  Guess I'm a bit desperate for someone to identify with.  Sheesh.  Anyway.  Hello all.  :)  My name is Chameleon (Tami really but I like Chameleon).  I'm 42, married, homeschooling mom.  Nice to "meet" you all.  :)

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Date Joined Dec 2006
Total Posts : 41
   Posted 3/21/2007 6:37 PM (GMT -7)   
it is very nice to meet you too. i am a homeschooling mom also. i was diagnosed with bipolar about 3 months ago, and p/a disorder, agoraphobia, and ocd about 4 months ago. when i had my melt down i hid out in our bathroom for two hours and slept in my daughters room that night and then i couldn't get off the couch fro like 2 weeks. there are days that i would love to do what you did i just somehow manage to talk myself out of it.

i was on the abilify but it made my blood pressure reallly high and i ahd to go to the ER. i was also on seroquel but i took myself off of that because i couldn't wake up - i slept constantly and like you said "i have a life".

anyway it is nice to meet another homeschooling mom in the same condition. sorry we had to meet this way though.

God bless you all

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Date Joined Sep 2006
Total Posts : 657
   Posted 3/22/2007 5:26 AM (GMT -7)   

Hi there Chameleon , welcome to the family :-)

The alternative therapies you have mentioned could really help. I found gardening helped me...out in the sun , getting exercise (without having to follow some sort of drery exercise program!) , eating the produce (no chemicals nono ). Gardening is my form of meditation.

I have also started on meds which are helping me cope , and having counselling as I have a lot of life experiences that have gone undealt with.

If you'd like a link to a free online CBT course I've got one.

Nice to meet you ,

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