i'm not new to bipolar, and i'm not new to a whole host of meds that i've tried. wellbutrin gave me seizures, prozac made me manic, klonopin made me tired, celexa by itself was like drinking water.
anyway, in the past few months, my pdoc has started me on lamictal. at first i didn't feel the effects of it at all. after a while i felt something and that gave me some hope. after the first month (and i had been weaned off of celexa at the same time) i was a raging, crying, blithering mess. my pdoc put me back on celexa and by the time my next appointment rolled around (a month later) i had been seriously suicidal a few times in the last month, couldn't leave the house for anything but work, and didn't want to deal with my life in any way shape or form.
a few days ago i plunked down in the chair in front of my pdoc and i imagine i looked completely miserable. i told him how crapty i had been feeling ... i think he was so freaked out at how much i really didn't give a crap about anything at all) and then put me on something that i had been fighting with him about for months ... dexedrine. amphetamines.
i promised him that i would try them for the month at least and not give up because he felt that they would bring the bottom up from my world of despair and motivate me and make me not want to do absolutely nothing with no motivation whatsoever. i've been on the meds for a few days ... i felt GREAT the first few days and am going to double the dose (dr's orders) in two more days. i haven't felt this good since i was happily floating along on wellbutrin.
just a question ... anyone with any experience with dexedrine? and if so ... what? it's so hard to find information about this med except "IT'S AN AMPHETAMINE THAT IS HIGHLY ADDICTIVE BLAH BLAH BLAH" ... not taking into account the people who need it to get through the day and not get high.
just curious. merci - iracund
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