Your post brought tears to my eyes today. I cannot tell you how good it was to hear from you; I've been thinking about you (and Footballfan) wondering how you both have been doing. I am so glad to know you're still here on HW. It's also nice to know you took some time together, had a holiday. It was probably needed with all you have both been going through.
I can definitely relate to the clear thinking. My thinking becomes very clear when I'm brinking on hmania or fully in that state. But even so, it is in fact clear thinking, and I can finally see things and sort things out. Of course this also happens in a normal mood, but it's been ages since I've felt normal for one day.
It's great that you're still focused Dutchie, way to go! You are still making progress, and at the same time acknowledging it's a "process". I think you've got the right idea, by focusing on yourself. That will help you immensely.
So--thank you for your advice. Something I do know for sure is that I will make sure I am in a good state of mind when I talk to my boyfriend about bringing him to counselling. I learned that when facing possible conflict, it is best to chose a time outside of the emotional moments to have discussions. I have really taken in the other things that you've said--about me deciding what his reactions are going to be regarding my depression, going to conselling etc. I know for sure, he loves me, AND he wants us to be together, he truly wants our life together. He wants us to have a wonderful future and has already done so many things to make sure that happens. He definitely cares about our relationship; and I know that is important. It's just the emotional support of this illness that I need, and I am not sure it's going to happen. But like I said, I will take what you said with me and not forget it. Afterall, he has shown this support to me before, so I have to remember that he can do it...It's just will he?
I am going to sit down and write some of the things that I am concerned about and talk it over with my counsellor on Wednesday. I was planning to start doing that this afternoon, you have given me more to think about. So I'm glad I got your post before I did this writing. Thank you so much, and I will post on how this all goes.
Take care Dutchie, so glad you're back.