Hi everyone. I moved this posting from another thread for flbutterfly: Please respond to it here.
Hi everyone, I am new to this forum but hopefully can share my experiences and gain more education. I have had bipolar disorder for the past 8 years, and seem to get mixed episodes mostly and they are terrible at the time. For me, taking my medicine and seeing a counselor is a must.
I was doing well until this week. I had a total colectomy on August 8 of this year and didn't get my medication for a month, which has just thrown me off balance. I wasn't able to swallow my medication and my insurance wouldn't pay for liquid meds as they were too expensive. I was in the hospital for 2 weeks.
I went back to work today and can feel myself falling apart. It was a stressful day and I've been so happy in the last month with shopping, cleaning, and staying up later and sleeping later in the mornings. I've also been depressed which together for me is a lethal combination.
Last week I saw my counselor and told him that I didn't feel sick like the others in his office and wanted not to rely on him so much. Boy was I wrong. Now I'm in a tailspin and almost afraid to call and say that I need his help. I guess that sometimes I'm too cocky and don't want to admit to others that I'm bipolar as most people don't know that I am. My husband is wonderful and has worried that I'm manic because of my spending sprees lately. I kept telling myself that it wasn't cause I've had to buy new clothes since surgery to fit. I've lost a lot of weight and I've heard that anesthesia can cause changes in us, too, so I keep thinking that maybe I'm ok. I didn't like exercising before surgery, but now am walking everyday for my motility disorder, and eating healthy.
Does anyone have any advice for me? I'm at the point where I'm not sure if I'm alright or just too many changes going on right now. I'm a creature of habit usually.
Post Edited (olivia of course) : 10/2/2007 11:31:58 AM (GMT-6)