Quite alright Serefena! you ladies crack me up! he he he he. :)
In my guy-ignorance (that I've been told is okay to have, being a guy), I must ask, what do you mean by "sound bites" for your husbands?
I know what a sound byte is by definition, e.g., a little sound clip to accentuate a commercial on audible media, but just curious of the application in the context of which you speak. ugh. that's even tiring language to write! ha ha ha. God Bless it, and I am wanting to get an MA in English. ha!
I know I probably shouldn't be writing all this this late at night, but it is the only time I have to be on here, so here's some more stuff of current.
I have a notion that one thing that would REALLY help my wife is for her to find some personal grasp or security if you will to share her disorder with others. that is, to let a select handful of important/relevant/helpful friends know about
it. I have been told I am very good with people, as she describes me: "you could carry a conversation on with a brick wall." or something like that.
But she is very much an introvert in her personality, unless she's feeling great, (not extremely high up there somewhere, which she simply does not experience, and hasn't for many years, but is nonetheless very closed manner of a person. anyway, my notion is that if she was to
open up about
her illness to a few folks she really trusted, it would help her through any tough times, or (again in my ignorance here) perhaps keep the swings from happening at all.
oh, here is another topic/question for you all: are the "mood" swings inevitable? by "mood" I mean, and again, I am still learning as much as fast as possible about
BP, the cheerfullness or the depressive state of mind. Let's take right now for instance, now granted it is 11pm, and when she takes her Seroquel at usually about
8:30 she is toast in roughly 30minutes, but I don't mean this minute right now, but this week. I still need to ask her tomorrow about
the current med change. She asked me earlier on the phone (yeah! she called me and talked!
my getting her on my insurance as her bc/bs insurance doesn't cover hardly anything, as she said the trileptal would be $300/month and Seroquel would be $267/month. This is obviously VERY unrealistic on our budget to be able to afford and still have a roof over head and food on the table.
Thank God, as far as I know, my insurance will kick in immediately for her, where she can get each of these meds for $40/THREE MONTHS WORTH OF DOSAGE! not bad, eh? so I guess I really am stuck in my job until I knock out a master's degree in something by golly.
I need to intervene on the topic here for just a moment and say that I love my wonderful wife more than I may ever have the words to describe. I mean I really love her. our saying from back in our wedding prep days, and for that matter, since we ever really started spending ever day together, (no exaggeration there either) one of our sayings has been: "no matter what."
well, let me tell ya that I live by that every moment I ever spend thinking about
my very loving wife. when she smiles she so completely lights up my world, that, wow. Bill Engvall talks about
something called "Love Magic" and if you have it you know it. well, I have that for/with her, as does she when her mind is in a balanced state. when her meds are working she is so incredibly a joy to be near. and when she is off balance upyonder, well, I just wait patiently until she comes back from whereever BP'ers go for a while.
I will reiterate here also a point I think I touched on some time ago in a different post as to just how much in tune and in control she is of herself. from my outside perspective, it truly is an amazing ability to be able to handle what she does as well as she does.
I am so thankful for all of you, if we were face to face I'd give ya all a nice big 'n tight hug, one at a time mind you! ha ha ha lol (okay, not out loud, but in my mind out loud, she's sleepin in the next room.
oh yeah, and she let me know very nicely today when we were on the phone that we were "going to be apart for a while." meaning I'm on the couch until the storm passes,
Mrs. Hyde moves along on here not-so-merry way, and my honey can once again appreciate the beauty God gave us all to enjoy of the great fall colors in the yard, with the mountains right outside the back door. boy, if ever there was a place on earth to need to be in to recover from bad juju like BP downs, this is it. well, one place anyway. I could think of a thousand great places I've been in my life, mostly horseback in the Rockies, but I digress. and need to undress 'n shower here too, as I gotta git ta bed (er, um, couch) pronto.
so ladies, please always feel free to continue on with zee banter of "girly silliness." heh heh heh. If I may brag for just moment, I have always been known for my good nature and constant loving laugh, smiles, and all around good feelings I share with anyone and everyone around me. not all touchy-feely kind of "group hug" stuff, but really just genuine me. most of the time I like me. only time I don't is when I may have ever had a cross thought about
my honey when she is really unfriendly (when Mrs. Hyde's present).