Thank you all so much for reaching out to me, once again. I'm sorry it's taken me some time to post; but I have been too depressed (and busy) to write. I know I will feel better once this module (at school) is over next week. I'll probably even feel better once this huge exam is over tomorrow. Your suggestions to ask to write the exam at a different time made so much sense to me, but it's tough to schedule something like that at my college. Our program is condensed so much, we're on a very tight schedule to learn it all in a very short time. I think I'll do okay on the exam. I've decided for this exam, I am just going to worry about passing.
I did get in to see my regular doctor yesterday re my dizziness. She said that my nasal congestion and the change in barometric pressure are the cause. I agree with that. She prescribed some nasal spray and I have to stay well hydrated. I had another dizzy spell yesterday and today. Dutchie, you are so right about it bothering me that I had to leave school this week (with my perfect attendance). It was really upsetting. But the perfect attendance recognition is for each module, so I am sure I will achieve it again. And I know that my health is the most important thing. Really I haven't been feeling well (had a cold, dizzy spells, vertigo, bladder infections) since I started school, and so far have only missed 2 hours. So I know I am doing really, really well. Especially considering I am dealing with an overload of intense bipolar symptoms...
And that's what's really getting to me now. These physical health problems are triggering depression, anxiety, mixed states....I feel so sick with my bipolar right now, and that's scary for me. The arguement my bf and I had the other night is still in my mind. I'm still hurting over some things. Again, weighing on my bp.
Anyway, I have to go and get studying. I am so exhausted. Thanks again for listening.
Bipolar II, Anxiety/Panic Disorder
.5mg Clonazepam, 50mg Trazodone
--Currently not on meds for bp--