i am 18 years old, and i do not have any kids
at the time i work at shopko.
i get to see my doctor tomorrow morning at 9.
a little while back i had decided to go back on seroquel.
which i do really enjoy, but when i run out for a couple days,
it is so hard on me. when i dont have my pills, i dont sleep
and seroquel is so rough to come down off of.
so im doing my best to keep on it.
becuz i cant afford paying for a prescription of it, my doctor
gives me samples to take, which works out just fine for me.
i also joined a support group in my town for bipolar.
ive gone 2 times so far, and it is ok.
we meet every 1st, 3rd, and 5th monday of the month.
and my grandma on my moms side of the family goes with me,
and will continue to go with me each time. she right now is my sole
supporter, and im very greatful for that. ive been going thru some rough times
with feeling not worth anything. when im driving home some nights,
i think about crashing and dying alot. with the holidays being so close, that
is hard also. im not invited to my family thanksgiving on my moms side becuz
at the moment she doesnt want anything to do with me. so when that comes
it will be kinda hard, im not sure how christmas will work out either, but if
it turns out how thanksgiving will, i know i wll be admitting myself into
the hospital for a visit. which doesnt bother me thinking about it
i like the hospital, i like the break from reality and the time i get
not having to worry about anything. i really dont know what to say
at this point anymore. it has been a long day, and im tired.
so im most likely off to bed.