Hi, it's been a busy weekend with the holiday. Please hang in there. There are many on our board that totally understand what you are going through. I'm sure as things start to settle down they will be around shortly.
The only thing I can offer is, that I know for myself that when I am going in a manic episode, I hardly remember what I was like or what I did. But I never did what your husband is doing to you.
You sound like you have been a great support to him and know his cycles, but you can not be responsible for him being irresponsible for not taking his meds and self medicating and the behaviour that comes from that. (That is an issue he needs to deal with and get serious about!)
Stick around. Someone will be along soon to give you their opinions.
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