Olivia is absolutely right. I've been in a mixed state for weeks, and often so irritable and angry for no reason. I have to work to not jump on people. But I'm just as likely to be mad at myself -- even more so, really. And sad, of course. That's my mania for you -- I don't get happy, I get angry and irritated. My doc actually "apologized" to me. She said "I'm sorry you don't get the positive, happy manias some people do." Yeah, well, thanks, doc.
Anyway, you're not alone. Feel free to vent here and let us know how you're doing.
SerafenaCo-Moderator, Bipolar ForumIt is a melancholy of mine own, compounded of many simples, extracted from many objects, and indeed the sundry contemplation of my travels, in which my often rumination wraps me in a most humorous sadness. -- William Shakespeare