Well, It seems easier for me to respond to, and hopefully help others, than address my own issues. I feel like by the time I want to write, it's too much and the same old thing. Nothing new there.
The doctor changed my meds about 3 weeks ago to 900 mg lithium, 100-200mg serequol and 2 mg royhpnol. I felt like I was going down again. Everything started to upset me. Work was driving me insane so I spoke to my boss and told him I wanted to give up my position as Director and go back to my old job. He didn't honor my request and I can't quite so I am stuck right now with a huge burden of dealing with upset customers. I get so depressed after a day of being torn apart. I hate answering my phone. Anyway, I went back today and was put back up to 1200mg lithium and he said we will see how that goes. See ya in a month. UGHHH! I hope it helps. I have also been fighting the father of my foster children. He wants to take them back to his village and has made them stop staying at the house. It really kills me. I have been taking care of these children for 5 years. Since they were born. Tis the season. I just can't get into it. I hope I will at least have them for Christmas, but you never know. It just seems like life is throwing some big hits right now. I am looking for another job, but jobs for foreigners are very hard to come by. I may look at working on a mega yacht, but need to know what is happening with my kids first.
See I told you alot is going on. No burden to anyone just wanted to get it out and considering my partner and I are don't speak about it and have been fighting this is my only outlet. Hope everyone else is enjoying thier holiday season.