To all of you~ I was overwhelmed this morning to read all of your replies. I cannot begin to tell you how good it felt to come on here this morning (dreading another day of depression) and read all of your support. You understand and that is more valuable to me than anything else right now.
I have been saying to myself "hang in there; just hang in there until we get the right dose." It's so hard starting on the meds.
I know my bf loves me, and I love him. What I said yesterday; I am not ready to give up, not even close. What I meant by that was, if over time we don't get better at this, I can see it tearing us apart. I am going to talk with my bf with compassion. I know that this is hard on him too. And honestly that is why I want him to seek this counselling. I have hopes that it would help him feel less frustrated. I know how that feels, to be so frustrated by this illness. We have that in common.
Anyway, I am going to do a lot of studying today. And I think I'll reach out for some affection from my bf today. He's been trying for the last several days, to hold me, hug me, and I just keep pulling away.
I am sorry for those who are depressed now too~ I'm there with you, and it will pass.