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Date Joined Sep 2008
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   Posted 9/12/2008 5:35 AM (GMT -7)   
I went in for my first mammo. I am 40. The breast I had no concerns about got a "call back: for a diagnostic Mammo.  They say there are "two areas of concern", that they have nothing to go back to, because this is my first. She tells me, it could just be a skin fold, but I keep thinking in 2 areas, really what are the odds of that.
I know that even if there is a lump, chances are good that it won't be cancer. I know that I have had Polycystic Ovarian syndrome, and if I could have cysts there, maybe I have a cyst or two in my breast as well.
I know this and still there is fear. My DH was DX with Prostate Cancer when he turned 40, 1 in 36,000 chance of that, and yet he had it. My chances are 1 in 68. HMMM, and the odds keep decreasing. I fall back on the fact that no one in my family has a history of breast cancer, but than again, that does not account for most breast cancer. At least I am getting educated about all of this.
I am just afraid because I am thinking of my two kids and how scary it was 4 years ago, and how they are so small still, then I say, Hey, stop it. Your 2 kids are just fine, and you are not going anywhere. The smallest of voices creeps in and says, at least not yet.
I just need to breathe, and I need to try to relax, my test is on MON.
Thanks for letting me vent, whine, or whatever this is. Jane

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Date Joined Jul 2003
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   Posted 9/12/2008 6:00 AM (GMT -7)   
That is what this board is all about, a place to whine and vent and get some good hugs of understanding. All of us have felt just as you do. We were all frightened and the waiting is the worst. Even if you have lumps that doesn't automatically mean cancer. So just tell yourself not to worry until you know you have something to worry about.

Hope your husband is doing well.

How old are your kids? What part of the country are you in? Let us know how things go on Monday.

Hugs Mary K.

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   Posted 9/12/2008 8:10 AM (GMT -7)   

My kids are 6 and 11.

My DH is in remission, has been for 4 years.  Early detection because he asked for a test he did not know that was recommened at age 50 not 40. :) Lucky us.

I am a bit angry in a way, because, I keep seeing 35 get a baseline on the internet. In magazines and my Dr's office poster I read 40. I did it at 40, had my Dr. said something I would have at 35. I have no history of BC in the family so I had no reason to do anything earlier, but I would have had the baseline at 35 if I had been informed. Sigh.


I don't feel any lumps, not a single one. I had a Clinical exam after the mammogram, not planned, just went in for some blood work, the lady keyed it as a wellness exam, and since I was there,I went ahead with the pap and the clinical exam. My Dr. did not feel a thing either. I get yearly clinicals and have since I was in my early 20's. My Dr. says I have never had an abnormal pap and could wait 3 years in between, but I say, I am getting older, not younger, and I will do them yearly. I actually was happy to have a "surprise Pap" because none of the dreaded anticipation. LOL.  I told my husband it is like getting for a date that you know is going to go really lousy. hee hee.


At any rate, I know I am over reacting, no worries until there is something to worry about. Even  if I felt a lump, most of them are b9! Right?  I also keep freaking myself out and I have decided the area under my arm is either a muscle or a HUGE lump. I need to stop examing my breasts now, as I have been about 3-4 times a day now. Still I feel nothing, so if it is there, it must be small.  I really need to stop speculating.

I do have to say, I have a better understanding of breast cancer now, and I will never again walk around without a clue. I have looked into volunteering with a local cancer organization. I image sometimes just running a few errands would mean the world, to someone who has kids and feels weak.

If this understanding is all this turns out to be, than I being scared was worth it.


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