Hi guys .
I am 36 already on Tx fro almost a year , I was dx on Dec 2011 , surgery was done and a 1.66mm lump and 1 positive lymph node was taken out . I had 4 chemo and 33 radiation which finished last July . It was journey that I know most of you here experienced but it was my worse journey . I started Tx right after last chemo . At first , hot flashes , night sweat , depression ( which I got after I was diagnosed ) was killing me . I had no more symptoms . gradually hot flashes and sweat vanished but Tx with help of my anti depression medication gave me a new body shape that I never imaged to have . I hate seeing myself naked there are fats all around my body which make me hate myself even though I try to be very careful on my diet .I also started to have my periods few months after chemo but my doctor isn't concerned about it , while I say to her : Hello , this is Estrogen
Anyway my focus right now is on the bone and body pain , hair loss that I am recently experiencing . about 10 months ago a severe pain started in my ribs ( same side of cancer ) . At 1st I tried to ignore it but I couldn't , breath , sleep , sit , bend or even hold my son . so I talked to my doctor. They did different scans and exams and images which took 5 months and at last some of my treatment team believed its bone metastasis and some said its just a fracture in rib due to Tx and radiation which made the bones weak and holding my 3 year old son makes it worse .
Finally they decided to wait to see if its fracture , it hills and then do the scans again . Now 4 months passed , I am having the pains again and I have to do the scan on June 4th . I am scared and have feeling that I used to have when I was diagnosed . My feeling and taught goes to cancer coming back but this time there no get away with it because its in my bones .
I really don't know what to do , where to go , talk to how . I feel numb and dead already .
Have any one had this experience before especially in ribs ? does any one have a solution for the weight gain ?
Post Edited (Neda) : 5/28/2013 1:35:35 PM (GMT-6)