Nice to hear from you and it helps me to write down my feelings which seem to jump from a high to a low, right now a low.
Funny thing about
me I'm upbeat at night when I usually post, but not so much in the daytime. I still wake up thinking none of this is happening and I know it is. Of course this a daytime post.
Right now I'm thinking what happened to me all of a sudden, been healthy for years, never sick and now three biggies within months...Lyme, Thyroid, Breast Cancer. I try to stay positive and if I don't I'll fall into a depression. Right now I feel like saying the hell with it I'm not going to have surgery, rads or possible chemo...all will make me sick and why would I do that even though I know I will.
What is really helping me is the support and positive experiences of HW posters and sometimes I feel I am making way too much of it all because most of the people here have gone through their own hell much worse than I.
I know I'm rambling on and on, not making sense and probably because I'm having a bad day thinking about
what's to come and I know I have to quit it because if you all can do it so can I.
my vacation. I know someone who owns a condo in Saint Petersburg, FL it's empty right now that's where I'm going to stay for two weeks....free. I also have a very good friend in Brandon, FL, Carolyn Yoss, who owns a bed & breakfast called Behind The Fence and will spend a few days with her. I love her place it's like stepping back into the 1800's and the most peacfull place I've ever been.
Then I will come home and back to reality and start rads and whatever.
Have to say Michelle your post was good for me just knowing your thinking of me was a very nice thing to see.
I feel better.