Unfortunately, I have been unable to reach Jen at her home number. I have left numerous messages that we are thinking about her, but I haven't gotten any response. Her cell phone message box is FULL. I am really worried about her.
I spoke with Mel's MIL yesterday. Things are basically the same. She sleeps most of the time from the pain meds, eats a little bit. MIL said Mel isn't making any effort to talk, either face-to-face or on the phone. MIL said that Mike & the boys visit occasionally, but I don't quite know what that entails. I'm sure they are handling this in their own way.
I know that Mel is so "tired" but her body's strength is still hanging in there. She is such an emotionally strong woman, but I wish she could "go" already. She and I have had many discussions and I can say with certainty that this is NOT what she wants.
I miss our phone calls. I miss the way we used to get stupid together on the phone. I wish I could TELL her I love her, even though she KNOWS it. I hate feeling like an intruder when I call. Sigh.
I am neither made or unmade by happenings around me, but by my reaction to them.
May this disease NEVER be allowed to take another wife, mother, daughter, sister, lover or friend........
I cannot control the wind, but I CAN adjust my sails
You can choose to look UP or DOWN--it's all about putting perfume on a pig. It is still a pig and it STILL stinks, but it stinks BETTER!
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