It seems my health adventures are not over. Yesterday, I had my follow-up with the internist. While there we discussed the UTI the urinalysis had picked up while I was in the hospital. That one had showed high levels of leucocytes and blood. I was given IV antibiotics.
Yesterday, the dr. did a new urinalysis, similar results. So now I'm on a new course of antibiotics. Who cares, what's another pill?? What does bother me is that today he's ordered an u/s of the kidney and pelvis, then on Monday I'm having a CT scan of the kidneys and abdomen. Isn't this grand??
I asked him exactly what he's looking for. He says "with my history...." yada, yada, yada. Seems he's thinking about masses some place. He says he can't disregard "blood in the urine." I'm happy he's being so thorough, but I'm so tired of being poked, tired of lying quietly while a machine whirs up and down my body, tired of people I don't know touching my body. Yesterday, late in the afternoon the dr's office called with the schedule for the tests and I could just feel myself withdrawing and my protective emotional walls go up.
All of this going on and I haven't even seen the cardiologist yet, that's on Tuesday of next week. I'm feeling real angry about things lately and that's not like me at all. I always feel anger is destructive, well, for me at least. Wish I could say, okay, another bump in the road, but this time I can't. AH, BC the gift that keeps on giving..... Luci
In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me lay an invincible summer. Albert Camus