Last night while staying up late watching a movie alone I decided it was time to do a thorough SBE again ( I had only half heartedly done one since the BC diagnosis in Jan ) and I found a lump in the left breast!!!!! BC was in the right breast and I am FREAKING OUT! I don't know what to do, where to go and can't even think clearly today. I have an appointment with GYN July 1st for annual and to discuss possible hyster. But I know I will most likely get sent to a surgeon no matter who I see first, GYN or ONC. My problem is I think I want someone else besides the surgeon who did my biopsy and partial mast. He was ok and personable but didn't inform me of the exercises I should have done and also didn't tell me I now have about 7 or 8 metal clips in me from the lymph node removal. I only learned that when I had x-rays done and the tech asked me if I had had a recent surgery under my arms. My GP showed me the x-rays and I was floored by what I saw!
This lump is about the same size as the other one was when I found it but it is on the bottom part of my breast about an inch or so below the nipple at 6 O'clock. The cancer had been on the outer side of my right breast at about 10 O'clock position. Since I had lobular I am very concerned. Don't they say lobular has higher odds of recurring in the opposite breast?
I want them both off and done with it now. I had been sitting on the fence about that since the diagnosis but now I know I don't want to deal with this every month, feeling for lumps and freaking out at everything. I was very good at knowing the topography of my breasts before the BC now I question my ability to do the exams.
Sorry to ramble, I have been a "space cadet" all day (even sent my daughter to be with my ex-monster in law that I can't stand ((I think I coined that phrase by the way)) and it just now hit me to get on here and talk to all of you. I can't believe that the stresss was so much that I forgot about my breast friends.
Sorry, I do love you all.
Snowflakes are one of nature's most fragile things, but just look what they can do when they stick together.
-Vesta M. Kelly
Post Edited (MiaB) : 6/20/2005 7:34:45 PM (GMT-6)