My cat came home today, safe and happy and hungry, while I was at chemo! Yeah! This is the first time in a week that I have not had this horrible dread and anxiety eating at me.
Anyway, chemo thread here! Had my fifth taxol today, and told her I'm still throwing up in my mouth and still having bone pain. So she switched the nausea medicine, but told me to just use OTC products for the pain, and IF those don't work, to let them know and they'll consider something with a narcotic (she had me on Naproxen, which only reduced the pain somewhat, but didn't get rid of it). I am not expecting any, or much, relief from OTC pain killers.
The hair I noticed growing back on my head isn't getting any longer. Perhaps there are more hairs per square inch, but the length isn't changing. I find myself getting more depressed about
my looks; the weight gain, the baldness, the loss of lashes and eyebrows. When I first had surgery the doctor's office gave me info about
something called "Look Good Feel Good", where you sign up to go to a seminar and get free makeup and demonstrations about
how to do your brows and lashes, etc. I never signed up because I really was doing okay with my looks until the lashes and brows went. Their lack changed my face so much.... made me "look" like a cancer patient, even when I had my wig on. So in the last couple of weeks feeling like there's no way to NOT look sickly anyway, I basically stopped wearing my wig almost 100% of the time --in the house. For the few things that take me out of the house I would put a wig on. So I signed up for the seminar, but the nearest date I could get isn't until mid-April. Oh well, better late than never.
I started to realize that it may effect my husband seeing me bald all the time. I don't mean that I look "ugly", because I know he doesn't see it that way. But it may make him focus on "my wife is going through cancer" every second of the day, never giving his brain a rest not to instantly think of that. So, starting yesterday I decided to wear a wig as much as absolutely possible.
Best of health and positive thoughts to all who are reading.
Post Edited (exqualls) : 2/27/2017 2:17:31 PM (GMT-7)