My 6 year anniversary was on February 14th...but.....

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   Posted 2/16/2006 3:10 PM (GMT -7)   
as thrilled as I am that I am here to talk about it, I am sad because
so much has happened over these past 6 yrs. Health wise, my
cancer has metasticized to my bones.Pretty much my whole spine,
left arm , Right Femur and Pelvic area. The pain is constant even
though I am on High dose pain meds. I have gone thru chemo twice and now on March 6th I will start my 3rd chemo...Gemzar. I hope it is
alot easier than my last round last spring.
Over the past 6 yrs I have made so many wonderful friends, but
on the sad side I have lost many of them to this horrible disease.
I would appreciate your prayers in the upcoming weeks..
Thanks for listening
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   Posted 2/16/2006 3:34 PM (GMT -7)   
No need to even ask for prayers... they are always being sent up to you from down here in S/W Ohio.
I am so sorry that you have to go through this again.  And you are so right when you say we have met so many wonderful women and lost so many at the same time. 

We have raced "for the Cure"
Worn Lee's Jeans on Friday "for the Cure"
Bought New Balance tennis shoes "for the cure"
Worn pink ribbon pins "for the cure"
Collected donations "for the cure"
Ate pink M&M's "for the cure"
Drank Sutter Home wine "for the cure"
Spent an extra $.08 on a stamp "for the cure"
Ate Lean Cuisine frozen dinners "for the cure"
We have all done our part "for the cure"
now you do yours and get us that cure.

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   Posted 2/16/2006 5:55 PM (GMT -7)   
Prayers are always coming from Michigan too...but especially so during this time for you. You are a fighter, my friend, and with the pink ribbon brigade at your side, we're going into that chemo room to kick some cancer butt! Hang in there my friend, we all love you and want nothing but the best for you.

Love you-

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   Posted 2/16/2006 6:03 PM (GMT -7)   
Cathi, You are in my prayers, and I will add you to our prayer chain at our church. You have been through so much, so I think it's time to cut you a break!!!! :-)

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   Posted 2/16/2006 6:14 PM (GMT -7)   
Cathi, Congratulations. As you know I have you in my thoughts all the time. I want you to go celebrate during your vacation and then the pink brigade with be with you every step of the way when you start your new treatment. You know we love you and want to share as much of the load as we can for you. Sending hugs and love, Joyce
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   Posted 2/16/2006 7:06 PM (GMT -7)   

I'm so sorry to hear about all you are going thru. I wish there was something I could do to make the pain go away. I will keep you in my prayers and in my thoughts.


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   Posted 2/16/2006 8:17 PM (GMT -7)   


You set such a good example for all of us fighting this disease.  You have always been strong and not afraid to share your fight and will to get better.  I will have you in my prayers for the Lord's blessings and grace.  He will give a supporting hand and be with you always through this latest battle. 

Congratulations on your length of survival and prayers to lessen the pain you are experiencing. 

Love and hugs,


Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work: if one falls down, his friend can help him up.  Ecclesiastes 4:9-10

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   Posted 2/16/2006 8:39 PM (GMT -7)   
How much has happened in the past six years. We have shared so many wonderful happy times, and we have grieved together. Prayers and postive thoughts are coming your way always. I have a friend here in the cities that is now in the fourth year of treatment for mets. She is such a dear, sweet lady, just like you. I hope the gemzar is an easy drug on your system. Sorry that you have such pain, though. That must be hard to cope with. Sending gentle, prayerful hugs, Lauri
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   Posted 2/17/2006 12:27 AM (GMT -7)   

Always holding you close, my friend.


Love you

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   Posted 2/17/2006 10:53 AM (GMT -7)   
I will have you in my thoughts hoping that this will be easier for you AND that it will work.  Hang in there.  Congrats on 6 years!  That's a big deal!
L & H,

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   Posted 2/17/2006 3:04 PM (GMT -7)   

Hi Cathi, read your latest and immediately wanted to give you a hug for your 6 years and then one because of your recurrence!

I'm sorry that you are going through this again and hoping that it will be easier. I know that when I had my recurrence I was just as scared as the first time -- dreading the chemo and wondering if I could do it. It made me feel scared AGAIN.

But the bottom line is we do chemo and surgery and radiation etc so that we can do the regular things everyday and be with those we love. We want to live and that gives us the strength to take chemo yet one more time!

I hate cancer and what it does to not only those who have it but their families. It is so hard. I will think of you and send my prayers that you can enjoy some piece of mind with everyday things and find the hope and strength to do what you need to do to put this chapter behind you.

Hugs from Denver,

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   Posted 2/17/2006 6:03 PM (GMT -7)   
Dear Cathi,
You know  that I always say that you are always in my prayers. I know that you realize it, but some how I keep wanting to say it. I am so sorry about your pain. I hope something will come along to stop it. You truly are one of the best people I've ever known in my life. And you are right. I have met the very best over this last six years. There have been so many highs and low lows. So much love in one group of people. Well, I'm giving you another cyber hug. I'm praying the Gemzar will be much better. Praying for a cure. Love you so much, Di

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   Posted 2/17/2006 8:18 PM (GMT -7)   
Cathi, and I wish we could each take away a little of your pain and share it among ourselves, and make you feel better. I know we would all be more than happy to do that.
I keep the pink feather that Mikki sent me in my purse all the time, and when I see it I think of all the ladies on this board, and you are the one person who for me represents all that is courageous about this group of women. I am so honored to know you. I also have two pictures as part of a slide show for my screen saver, one of which shows MK and Susan, and the other is me, Luci, and Peggy before Susan's funeral. They are my inspiration, as are you.
Oh, now I'm getting verklempft (did I spell that right???)....discuss among yourselves, LOL!
Love you, Peg

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   Posted 2/17/2006 11:09 PM (GMT -7)   

Cathi: I haven't had the privilege of meeting you personally but I have read your posts and know the strength that you have and will continue to have.

I know how defeated and scared you are feeling. When I was told that I had Stage IV, mets to the bone, it scared the He@@ out of me. I didn't think that I would be able to face chemo again. The fears I believe were worse than at the time of the original diagnosis. But, after 26 months of weekly treatments, I beat it. It wasn't easy but w/ the support and love and prayers from your family and friends, you will beat this again.

Lots of prayers being said for you. I hope that they can find something that will help control the pain and allow you to feel good. was your vacation?

Gentle hugs and strong prayers....Deb


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   Posted 2/18/2006 7:06 AM (GMT -7)   
I too am sorry you have to go through this again. I wish I could take the pain away. Hopefully things will be easier for you this time. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

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   Posted 2/18/2006 7:27 AM (GMT -7)   
Cathi, I understand the many emotions you go through on your anniversary. I pray that the Lord will ease your pain and help you through this new chemo. How wonderful that you are having this trip! It sounds like the perfect way to celebrate your anniversary.

I am so thankful to know you, my dear Cathleen, and look forward to celebrating many more anniversaries with you.

Love ya!

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   Posted 2/18/2006 5:31 PM (GMT -7)   
I'm here hugging you, too. Cathi you have been through so much, not only your own bc battle but you have been there for several of your very close friends who lost the battle. It's been a tough six years, I know, but I am happy you are here to celebrate this anniversary and I hope the Gemzar will make it possible for you to celebrate many, many more. Love you, MK

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   Posted 2/18/2006 8:30 PM (GMT -7)   
I'm looking at a picture of a spunky gal holding up a quilt, pointing to one of the panels.  She's always in my prayers. 
Just imagine that you're a dolphin who's ailing.  One of the wonderful things about schools of dolphins is that the others in the school swim around in a circle around the unwell loved one.  We are swimming around you in pink bikinnis, girl!
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   Posted 2/19/2006 5:59 PM (GMT -7)   

Dear Cathi,

Bittersweet, I am sure and I wish that you didn't have the pain.  I hate cancer but I am also thankful that it has allowed me to meet some pretty special one of the most special.  Sending prayers your way today, tomorrow and for always.  L&H, Christi

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   Posted 2/20/2006 1:24 AM (GMT -7)   
{{{{{{CATHI}}}}}} I so much wish I could fix this for you. You are one the the sweetest people I have ever met and you are in my prayers and heart.
Love you dear friend.
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   Posted 2/20/2006 9:09 PM (GMT -7)   
Oh sweetie, how I wish that I could take your hurt away.  When I think of you, I also think of a very sweet lady who is one of the strongest persons that I know.
Ellen mentioned that picture of you holding the quilt, I treasure the pic that I have of you that sounds just like hers.  I remember the day in Louisville that you had us all gathered around you and you telling us the story behind each of those squares.  I only wish that I would have video taped it, how special that was!!!!!!!!   And how special it is to know a wonderful lady like YOU, I feel blessed!!
Congrats on your 6 yr anni and I will be sending you lots of prayers and thoughts (as always),  that this new chemo will relieve you of your pain and that it will be gentle to your body. 
The pink cloud express will be getting ready to take off when you need us.  I will even bring my kazoo!
Sending you hugs my friend from central OHIO.
^j^  ^j^  ^j^
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   Posted 2/22/2006 3:42 PM (GMT -7)   
Dear Cathi...anniversaries can be bittersweet, can they not?  You have had such a long fight, but fight you have...and I am so proud of you for that!  I remember the first time I met you, my friend.  You were still sprouting hair from your first round of chemo, and your mets were still just a fear...and such a big fear!  You cried buckets of tears and had such a hard time controlling your emotions!  And now look how strong you have been!  Look how much you have gone through, and you just keep on fighting.  You are a hero, in my book, Cathi. 
Love and big Hugs...

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   Posted 2/25/2006 6:28 PM (GMT -7)   
Hugs and love from Colorado. I haven't checked in for awhile, but dropped by and saw your post. My heart goes out to you. You are a dear, strong lady, and have given so much to us all. I am getting ready to present a testimony of the past 5 years of my life, and feel so overwhelmed by it all. How life changed for us all, right? The one thing that is constant is the love and sisterhood we all share.
Hugs, Pam
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