For those who don't know me, I'm an "old timer". I've been a part of this group (the village & here) since I was diagnosed over 6 years ago at age 30. Having cancer was hard, but I am now facing something even harder.
Last week my best friend was diagnosed with ALS or Lou Gehrig's disease. Not only that, but with the most rapidly progressing type. Chances are she will be dead in 1 - 2 years. And it certainly won't be easy even surviving that long. I have never felt so helpless. With cancer at least you know there are things you can do to fight. With ALS there is nothing. No medication. No "handling" it. Just certain death. Beth is 40 with 3 kids. Her youngest is 7 and her oldest is 18 and currently serving in Iraq.
I truly am just sick with sadness, frustration and anger. I never felt anger with my diagnosis, but I do now. I know God is watching out for her, but it is just so unfair. Not only am I so sad for her, but selfishly I am sad for me. I am losing the best friend I ever had. You know the one -- you can tell anything to and never be judged. You share the same twisted sense or humor so she always gets your jokes. You can tell your deepest, ugliest secrets to....
Please keep her & her family in your prayers. And if you can spare another, please pray for me that I can be there for her and give her some kind of comfort...
Thank you for letting me share what I can't anywhere else.
Do not go gentle into that goodnight,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.