I figured that since not many responded to my post....everyone felt the same..... I had to make the decision with my own heart, and not to get too comlicated by reading, listening, to everyhting all at once.
So, I dug into my heart, and decided that I will have the lumpectomy....but they are going to remove almost 90 % of the breast...I have a awsome plastic surgeon who has made me feel alot at ease. He says he will reconstruct the left and fix the right to look just like the left.....On top of it, he is going to get rid of those luv handles I got, and give me a tummy tuck..SO, who knows.
Not that I am, in no means a vain person, I just didnt want to look at myself everyday and see something so trastic that I would be mad at myself for having , the wrong thing done.
I know I will live with this everyday, whether I look at my breast or not, I will be reminded of it, and I will thank God for each day I have after this is all over with.
I have been through an enourmous about of health problems my entire life.
But, for some reson..THIS is all so different.
I don't know why..I mean crohns disease is not an easy thing to live with everyday, having a sezure disorder is almost as bad.....BUt this Breast cancer, has hit me so hard in so many ways...and I just don't understand why.
its so emotionally draining....Today is my 13 wedding ann., and I have done nothing but Bit@* all day.
I know it wrong....But everyone seems to think I am super human here, that just like everything else, I am suppose to just go along with everthting.... & I usually do, I havn't had too many bad days but I do have them....My husband keeps saying, u r the strongest person I know u will be fine.
ANd I appreciate that...But I am also human, and am am having some bad days.
Brain tumor 1981
Dx.Crohns disease 1996
bowel resecction 2001
Thyroid cancer 2001
breast cancer .....currently waiting treatment options
seizure disorder .....all my life.