I am going to try to answer your question as directly as I can and see if you can relate to any of it instead of trying to tell you how to fix it, cause if I knew how to fix it I would be busy writing a book right now and setting up a website instead of talking to you.
Chronic Fatigue can be anything from you just feel tired all the time to a whole bunch of symptoms that are like layers on a onion. The worst symptom is the one your going to focus on at this moment. Peel that one off somehow and there is another one under it and so on and so on.
At my very worst times in my 14 years of having this, if energy is life, I felt like a inch from dead. Regardless of a full nights sleep, I would get out of bed feeling like I had 50 pound blocks of concrete strapped to my feet. Then I would drag those feet all day long, dealing with a myriad of symptoms. Anxiety levels going up and down. Panic attacks. Mental focusing problems. Feeling like I wasn't even looking at reality anymore. Horrible neck aches, horrible jaw and facial pain, plugged ears 24/7 for months, headaches, eye pain, blurry vision, dim vision. Driving and feeling like I was going to pass out behind the wheel. Allot of times I would look at the world around me and think, this does not look real. I was living in a mental and physical hell. The more I let myself think this, and focused on it, the worse it got. It kept feeding back on me stronger and stronger.
It took me 2 years to peel this onion and get myself halfway straightened out. I never took drugs the first time around with this. Maybe I should have. But instead, I looked very closely at where I was in this mess and I realized something. What we are is essentialy what we believe we are. If we believe were losing it, the mind and body will give you back what you believe and focus on.
This is going to sound like new age clap trap, but I went to two different Psychologist and told them what I figured out and they both said the same thing after a couple of sessions. They could not tell me how to help myself, because somehow, in the middle of my mess, I had figured out how I got there, and figured out how to get myself back out of it. What you are is what you view yourself to be. The first step in the direction of "normal" is to act "normal" regardless of how you feel or think. Focus on something else, anything else but the symptoms, whether they are physical or mental.
This is the one thing we all have in common is that our self perception gets messed up in this to different degrees. Some people it hits a little, and some people lose their complete sense of self. That is basicaly what Ego is, our self perception of who and what we are. Chronic illness tears up self perception. We first lose our sense of self to the illness and this is very traumatizing. A stable self perception is what protects us. With our self perception damaged, even shattered for some, we become very vulnerable. Most of us, once we deal with it long enough develop a new, modified self perception that now has the coping skills to change what we can, and not let what we cannot change take control.
That Doctor wrote down CFS because its a disorder of exclusion and it seems as far as he was concerned, enough had been excluded to put that tag on there. What he wrote down though is not all that important. What is important is that you realize that how far this goes, how much it ends up hurting you, how far it takes you down is more in your hands and how you view it and yourself, then probably any other thing. You are not and will not lose your mind unless you bring it on by believing you are and focusing on it.
Fibromyalgia, Chronic Fatigue, IBS, Diverticulitis, Costocondritis, Thorasic Degeneration, Mild Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy, Mild Hilar Lymphodenopathy, Depression, Anxiety. Near Constant Dyspnea. Disequilibrium, prolonged standing, walking, progresses late in day.
Klonopin, Percocet, Baclofen, Ibuprofen, Valerian, Greens Plus, Magnesium, Vitamin C, COQ 10, B Complex, Glucosomine, Condrotin, MSM.