Posted 3/16/2011 9:19 AM (GMT -8)
I looked back over my most recent blood tests, which were taken a little over a month ago now, and it doesn't look like I was specifically tested for HCMV. I guess I should try to do that :( That is incredibly discouraging to me! I want my life back!!! But I guess I have to take it as it comes because it doesn't seem like anything I do is really going to return me to the state that I once was in. I've climbed 13,000 ft mountains before, and I had a goal of running a marathon in my lifetime! Well...now I am just venting, sorry, I know that whoever is reading this understands all too well how I feel. I have been taking it easy and trying to be very intentional about my healing and health, and it seems to have been making a difference, except today I feel really bad again, really sore and weak, and lonely! I don't know if I agree with your point about a NP or a PA being my best bet, I originally was seeing a PA, and although she was very nice she simply told me to take it easy and come back to be retested in 3-4 months. I think its her fault that I didn't get over it in the beginning. I didn't know what I was facing, and it seems like she didn't know what I was facing either, or I think she would have been more proactive about warning me. I don't know... I've looked up the information for a doctor in my area that claims to specialize in treating CFS, and I am hoping to get into see him. We'll see if that works.
Thank you for redirecting me toward CFS, I knew that it was a possibility and that it could be a potential fate that I'd have to face, I was just hoping that my Dr. would bring it up if he was concerned or suspected it. Thanks! And I apologize for my particularly negative attitude in this post, I just really hate that this! I am too young and ambitious for this! But, I guess I need to turn my ambition toward trying to fight for my own quality of life!