Thanks Denise for the support and kind words. I just feel so drained, my limbs feel so weak, and I'm just so tired. It's really depressing (as you know). My partner who i live with is a muscian. He is SO supportive and loving and would do anything to help me. He doesn't make tons and has no health insurance so I cant jump onto his plan or anything. I am the one with the steady income and insurance. So that's an added pressure.
I am trying my best and that's all i can do. Half the battle is in my head. Telling myself these are real feelings and symptoms I am having and they are not all in my head.
Thanks again for replying, it's nice to not be alone with this.