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Date Joined Feb 2015
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   Posted 2/17/2015 2:16 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi all,
I guess I'm just looking for others out there. I've struggled with health problems my whole life. (I'll be 35 this year) Had to be hypervigilent, selfish, advocate for myself, and work so darn hard for just a bit of relief.
I love my job. I help so many people. Someone told me that in doing my work, I would heal myself. In some ways it has.
In other ways.. . no.
Sometimes I get so resentful of my body even though I know that'll only make it worse.
sometimes I hate having to be so strict with my diet. I hate being bombarded with all the things that are poison to me disguised as yummies. And these skinny little bodies who can eat whatever. . . and here I am I veggies every meal, high quality meats, gluten free, dairy free, soy & corn free, non GMO, organic, exercise, yoga meditation high quality expensive supplements and still well over 200 lbs, still tired.
I'm discouraged by this rollercoaster of making some progress only to be set back again.
No one in my world even comes close to understanding what I go through.I don't want to be a burden and I don't like feeling debilitated.
Today was a tough day. I guess I was looking for some support to keep going.

Rest well as I pray for the same for me too,

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Date Joined Jun 2008
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   Posted 2/17/2015 8:43 AM (GMT -6)   
Welcome to the forum, I am happy to meet you. I know what you mean about having to advocate for yourself in order to find even a tad bit of relief, I am happy to up my relief by 1%. Right now I function at about 30% of my old self, when I am crashing I am at 15-20%. I try different supplements at different times to see if I can find something to help. Last week I decided to try Malic Acid, it has been said to be good for Fibro, but my CFS has been crashing for that same week so yesterday I didn't take it & am doing a bit better. I will wait for about a week & try it again but I kinda think it is a no go for me.

I tried all kinds of diets & found the Adkins was the only one I did really well on & didn't cheat. I love the food & was losing weight so I didn't want to cheat in any way. I lost 40 pounds on it & my daughter, Misty, lost over a hundred. Misty has Mixed Connective Tissue Disease & really needed to get the weight off that she had put on with the illness & Prednisone. I found after I went off of the diet that I didn't feel any better or worse as I added foods back so I have no limitations on that. I used to be bothered by soy quite a bit & stayed away from it for about 3 years, I reintroduced it back into my diet slowly & found my intolerance was gone. Do the things you are doing help you with energy? I wish my body would react to eating differently by giving me more energy. Oh well, we each have to do the best we can.

How I wish I could work, you must be so proud of yourself. What exactly do you do? I dream about my past jobs & still mourn the inability to work. I had to quit due to being so ill & I just wasn't able to do the work anymore. It was a job that I loved & gave me such a feeling of accomplishment, keep working as long as you can. Hang in there.

I hope you come back & post as you have the time & energy. Gentle hugs, Denise
Fibromyalgia-dx'd: 2006, ME/CFS-dx'd: 2006, Holt-Oram Syndrome dx'd 1975, reduced lung capacity dx'd 2009, nasal allergies, food allergies, depression (lifetime problem) IBS, neuropathy in hips

I have 4 children & 7 grandchildren.

As apples of gold in silver carvings is a word spoken at the right time for it. Prov. 25:11

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Date Joined Feb 2015
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   Posted 2/17/2015 12:59 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Wahpu!!
I totally understand what you're going through!! It really is tough and people don't get it unless they've experienced it. You're lucky to be working and should hang in there as long as you can!!! I'm 44 today and haven't been able to work in 2 years. Just couldn't be consistent with my attendance anymore, one day was good and 2 were bad.
We all just need to vent sometimes and this is a great place to do it. Everyone here understands. Hope your day's get better soon!! Hang in there!!!

Fibromyalgia, Chronic Fatigue

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Date Joined Feb 2015
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   Posted 2/18/2015 11:59 AM (GMT -6)   
Today, I feel better. I got the rest I needed.
Thankfully, my work is extremely flexible. I do not go to any office and I don't have a boss hanging over my head. I can take days when I need.
I'm a Building Performance Consultant. I go to people's homes all over the US. Using diagnostic equipment, I comprehensively test for combustion safety, energy leakage, and MOLD.
Mold is actually a huge problem and I know for myself IS a contributor to my illness. Mold does not have to be black and slimy to be toxic. There are 5 different types of toxic molds that live in homes and like ticks have several life stages taking different forms of itself.

I believe the home, the place you live is an extension of oneself. This is the place you go to 'recharge' yourself, where you can just be.
If it is INVISIBLY toxic, then no matter what you do, this toxic place you call home will never let you recover.
50% if the homes in the US are "Sick".
Sick home, Sick body... get it?
So, I can get very busy, in and out of other people's sick homes. For the most part, I can handle it because I use very high grade respirator and filters. Yet, the traveling in itself, drains me. Especially where I stay overnight. In January, I had 4 business trips and an out of town wedding. Too much! One of those trips, I stayed at the most run down hotel I've ever seen. I should have went to a different hotel, but I got there at close to midnight and was supposed to leave at 7 the next morning. The travel schedule can be grueling.

I do this work because I love it. Many of my clients are much sicker than I and I feel that because of my journey, I have a deep compassion for theirs. It makes me want to find the best way possible to heal the home for them, so that they can heal themselves.

Hey, thanks for letting me vent. Yesterday was the lowest I've been in a long time. I just couldn't move. Slept for 11 hours and feel much better. I might have 4 hours to work on the computer, then another nap. :)
Blessed is rejuvenating health.


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Date Joined Feb 2014
Total Posts : 78
   Posted 2/21/2015 12:49 AM (GMT -6)   
lauren do you work with radon testing?
I used to say my pain was an 8 or a 10. then I found out it can get worse. muscle spasms caused hypolordosis 2 failed rotator cuff surgeries OA DDD stenosis 2 slipped discs cervical and lumbar impingment extrusion/protrusion endplate edema hypertrophic flavum annular tears vasculitus ,cyroglobulinemea and all the * that comes with it raynauds etc carpal tunnel adenomyosis hysterectyomy

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Date Joined Jan 2012
Total Posts : 292
   Posted 3/17/2015 7:27 PM (GMT -6)   
your comments on working hit home with me, so I wanted to respond. I have had CFS/post EBV for a bit over 4 years now. I am almost 52 now, but still manage to work FT. I see this as a way to forget about CFS, and to still engage in a job that I love, and went to college for. The income certainly helps, as CFS is a very expensive ailment to have. I take Adderall or vyvanse, and also taurine and the monthly saline IV. This combo helps me work FT. I also tend to a strict diet which is so hard, but necessary. I also feel jealous when I look around, and see those who can just breeze through their day not worrying about a health condition and can focus on other things all the time. Must be nice. I guess I feel lucky to still be working, but I know I will have to retire early as there is now way I could to this until I am 65 unless a breakthrough happens. I say work as long as it doesn't consume every ounce of energy, and then you have no social life or something outside of work. Not an easy task by any means, but that is where life is at for me right now.

Dancing Dawn
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Date Joined Feb 2015
Total Posts : 87
   Posted 4/24/2015 1:18 PM (GMT -6)   
Hello WT, Yes. I can understand your need to vent. I'm sure we all have that
need and some days it's stronger than others. At least I feel that need. I'm
retired now, and worked until I was 63. It was part time towards the end.
I feel 'lucky' that my health held out for the most past during my 40's
and 50's. When you're battling fatigue and for me it was reoccurring
illnesses, it's not possible to keep a job unless perhaps if you're self
employed. Sometimes we have no choice.
For you, if your energy holds up and you do love this job, I'd say the
same. Do the best you can with it. I don't doubt that you're helping
a lot of people. I have R Shoemaker's book and have cleaned up my
place from mold. I know how important this area is for peoples'
health. Someone like yourself will certainly matter to many people.
I was encouraged to read your post and to see that you're working
in this area. Good wishes with everything.
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