Grief

HI all,

I've had CFS for ate leas 25 years. When I was the sickes I found romantic partner and we got married and we're together for 15 years. He died in accident a year ago, I feels yesterday.

Well there is more to the story from his side, some times in the relationship I diagnosed, an was confirmed that he had Borderline Personality disorder. Actually it makes me chock, who normal would be with me anyway.

Many of you may not know what BPD is and how hard the relationship had been.

But now I am alone.

Grief has been so strong that I am in relaps.

I go to Lacanian psychoanalysis and has been the best therapy so far.

But the loneliness is not only physical is experiential, nobody I know has CFS, nobody had(s) partner with BPD, and bizzarly nobody has experienced early sudden death.

What category of people am I in, forums are specific, I have three situations, and it is expanding the feeling of uniqueness and need to be hiding some parts of my life all the time.

Best to all
Jox

Hi Jox,

You are not alone!

I was in terrible romantic relationship ,well it was abusive ,rage filled and BP (unmedicated),turmoil filled.

I am out of it and feel filled with grief and lonely.

I hated the drama but love him immensely(guess it was one sided from my side as he did not change his behaviors)
Our personality is hard to change so we both went separate ways for better health of ourselves.

YOURS IS SIMILAR STORY,WE ARE UNIQUE but not alone .

Post here anytime ,WELCOME to the forum!!

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Cilly
For our rejoicing is this, the testimony of our conscience, that in simplicity and godly sincerity, not with fleshly wisdom, but by the grace of God, we have had our conversation in the world, and more abundantly to you-ward.