You don't have to appologize - you are too hard on yourself . I replied to one of your other posts on this forum, but I'll copy it here so you don't miss it. I saw on the lupus forum that you slept pretty well last night. Sorry the crohns is acting up though . I'm in terrible pain today. I hate taking pain meds, but I had to today to be able to function and get out of bed.
Anyway, here's the reply I made to you yesterday. I wanted you to see it because I talked about living in Colorado . Here it is:
artpainter, you are too sweet - there aren't too many people out there anymore who are as caring as you are. I'm so glad you are finding some peace and trusting in the universe. I try. Sometimes I don't worry about things and trust that everything will be okay no matter what happens, other times the fear creeps in and takes over. I much prefer the feeling of trust and peace over fear, but it's hard sometimes.
I didn't realize until recently that you live in Colorado. I lived there for 4 years a long time ago. When I graduated from high school I wanted to go experience life before going to college, so I ventured out to Colorado. I lived in both Breckenridge and Telluride. I lived in Telluride when it was a quiet little hippy town before the rich and famous discoverd it. I just worked to be able to afford to live and did a lot of hiking, skiing and self discovery. We try to take a family vacation to Colorado every year - the mountains and the climate are very healing to me. Every so often we talk about relocating, but it is so expensive to live in CO now.
Thanks for all of your kind thoughts. Wishing you a wonderful day.
Diagnosis: Suspected Lupus 2004; Raynauds 2006; Sjogren's 2006; CFS 1991; Mono 1985
Meds: Plaquenil 400mg; Tramadol 100mg 3-4x daily; Amitriptyline 10mg; Neurontin 200mg; Steriod Cream and Mouth Rinse for tongue and mouth ulcers; Hydrocodone 5/500 prn for severe pain
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