oh, hippi, i am so sorry u are still fighting flare, hon...please rest;now i am going to get bossy(like my brother says i am anyway);stay in bed, dear...unless, of course,the house is burning down! i am 100& serious; i do understand that you want to spend more time w/family, but when you don't rest in bed it will just take longer for flare-up to leave..i speak from a lot of experience, believe it;i was once in bed for 3 wks;too weak to get up, but that was after i had done too much & pushed my body too hard;we pay big time for doing that, hippi, you know it. i really do understand a lot of how u must fel, esp. emotionally;not havin lupus , etc, of course i can't understand it all;crohns isn't lupus, but it is related as is cfs;our immune systems just don't work properly...as though you don't know that, right? you know, after all these yrs., there's still a part of me that is in denial about
it. there is a part of me that still believes i'll get out of bed one day & be healthy again, although i know better...is it stupid to hold on to that hope? what do u think? it is not realistic, but if i give that up, i don't think i would want to live;make sense? i thought i had accepted it all 100%;apparently not, & i just now realized that. thanks, hippi;you help me to think as i write to you. also, thanks for the kind words...you have no idea how much you lift my spirits, hun...& i can't properly ever thank u enough excert to tell u that uhave a friend for life in me if you want one. i have worked on 2 paintings this past wk;think i ruined 1, we'll see...so i'm waiting for more energy, concentration before i tackle moe work;cfs makes me so weak as well as confused, can't concentrate;i love books, too;don't rad much anymore, tho;since the cfs...i can read a sentence or 2 3 times sometimes & still not remember what i readwe hadto take speed-readind in college &i
used to inhale books....i sure miss that;i read when i can but it's different now..i am so glad that u can pass some time rading, dear;it's a wonderful thing.my mother read to me when i was 2&3 on for a few yrs.(i didn't tell her i could read when i was 31/2 cause i liked that time, our time;) well as usual, too long.. tc, rest, & stay in bed as much as you can..or knowing. u, WILLknow i'm thinking of you & hoping & praying for u to feel bettr soon. again, & u can't kick my butt, cause u can't reach it hehehe..REST. tc hugs & love from painter j.
i will be watching u, lady;i have my ways!!REST-